I made a new group called Due In Feb 2011....just letting people know.

Things have been going pretty well. Not throwing up much anymore...I hope that's not a bad sign. Been having lots of loose stools (yeah TMI....sorry) though. Everything I eat seems to shoot right out of me. Wasn't sure if that is a normal pregnancy symptom....but after googling it I guess it is fairly common in your first trimester.

Still trying to stay upbeat and positive. I called the mid-wife I had wanted....had blogged about her before. She is not taking anymore clients after January I cannot really be upset though because she explained to me that she hasn't had a real break from delivering babies in 30 years! If anyone needed a break this women does! I am bummed though cause I really wanted to go with her. I have seen her in action, my sister sees her, and just about every women I know who has done a home birth has used her and loved her.

Oh well. We are going to make an app with my OB and just go from there. He is really good and I like him a lot. I just would like to do a home birth and am a bit unsure how he would feel about that. I cannot foresee him having an issue because he is more like a midwife than an OB. He has all the medical knowledge, but the bedside manner of a midwife. Plus he is a christian which makes it nice. I have been seeing him for over 6 years now. So we have a real good patient/doctor realtionship too.

On a plus side....my insurance will completely cover a home birth as long as I do not get listed as High Risk in my 3rd trimester.

Tomorrow I will be 5 weeks. I really wish I was already 13 weeks so I can relax more and not be so worried. Been praying every day and night (and in between) that the Lord will be gracious and let this baby stay.