Its been awhile. I have been struggling with allergies and anxiety. Yay what a combo Twice in this last week I woke up feeling that if I get out of bed something horrible will happen. Tuesday was so bad that my mom had to come take the kids. Having worked over 4 years with a psychiatrist I know "better" than to feel this way........but it doesn't mean I do not feel it.

On other news...I have been charting my temp. However something fishy seems to be going on. The last 3 days I have had the same temp at 97.3. I have been taking my temp every morning at 7am (have my phone set to go off) and have been getting the standard 3+ hours of sleep before I temp (usually I have at least 7hrs under my belt when I temp). 1st day I had 97.7, next day 97.7, next 97.5, and now 3 days in a row...97.3. I am definitively been having Peak CF since Tuesday, so I suppose I should start seeing an rise soon. Also had some intense ovulation pain on Tuesday. Also now that I am charting I have realized that DH and I have A LOT of !!!  I guess I never realized just how often we are getting it on. Lol. Its a good thing

I am not going to get too worried about my temps considering this is my first chart and I didn't start temping until CD12. Hopefully my next cycle chart will show me more and what I need to know. I am hoping to have 3 full charts to take with me when I see the midwife I had been talking about. Tomorrow I am going to the Medicaid office and applying. Since DH still doesn't have steady employment....just odd jobs here and there....we should qualify. She accepts Medicaid and I am really anxious to see her and find out what we can do to be able to start TTC again. I am so hopeful that she can help us to have a safe pregnancy that results in an a baby...not miscarriage. And I want to have a baby so badly.

Babies are everywhere. Seriously.