I woke up feeling "weird" this morning. And so totally fatigued. Like I hadn't slept in days....DH let me sleep till 10:30. Then the coughing started and now I can hardly breathe. My wheezing is so bad DH says he may take me to the ER. I told him to just get me some Claritin-D. Funny cause pollen counts are super low today. Not sure what caused my allergies to flare, but what ever it was is a total jerk.

Wheezing is a bit less since taking the Claritin. DH went to drop off resumes and fill out applications. I hope he gets home soon cause I just honestly feel like crap.[:'(] But I cannot complain either cause he really does need to get a job.

I spent most of the night crying...this month is just so hard. I should have my little  baby in my arms.

A friend from church who get pregnant a week before I did just had her son...and I am so happy for her. I just cannot help but wish I had my baby too

I am anxious to get my thermometer...is that weird? I just am anxious to see if I have Luteal Phase Defect. I am hoping in about a month I can go see this mid-wife who deals a lot with women and fertility problems. My sister just saw her and said she loved her. My sister asked her about my Prolactin problems and the mid-wife said she deals with a lot of women who have my problem and is confident she can help me with it. And help me to have a healthy pregnancy in spite of it. She told my sister that she just delivered a baby from a women who has my problem. This is gives me hope. Plus if I can get off the meds and do some natural stuff to help my problem I would feel so much better. The side affects of this Bromocriptine are just horrid.

Plus the reason DH and I are WTC is because of my med issues and if this mid-wife knows how to help me then we can start TTC and maybe even get our baby

And yet at the same time we are trying to be cautious about hoping too much and thinking this mid-wife is going to have the miracle cure. I think I just need some hope right now. Since the 2nd I just have had like no hope about ever having a baby.

DH just called and is almost home. Thank the Lord! I need a shower and a nap....I feel just so weird and loopy. At least we got half our home school done, so I am not a complete lazy butt today.