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re: Pregnancy didn't cure my infertility

sissy1412 — Fri, 03 Sep 2010 14:55:26 GMT

LaurenAZ from what it sounds like to me, and I have not been through your struggles. But in my opinion you may have to go through some sort of a grieving process to let the past "die" . I think maybe the emotional rollercoaster you may be going through may just be a part of a grieving process.

re: Pregnancy didn't cure my infertility

selenesmom — Wed, 25 Aug 2010 02:14:02 GMT

Hang in there, honey. I went through 3-1/2 years of ttc since 10/2006 with my husband, countless cycles of Clomid and switching RE specialists, until finally we got lucky with our first IUI with hCG and Clomid (countless ultrasounds and blood tests through the cycle) with a new RE. I have mellowed out a bit since my 2nd trimester is almost over, but I still feel I have more in common with women who are struggling with ttc than with women who are due the same month as I am. When you've been down that road, you'll forever be able to empathize with women going through the same thing.

re: Pregnancy didn't cure my infertility

laurenAZ — Sun, 22 Aug 2010 23:32:42 GMT

Thanks Kate for your reading, understanding, and commenting! I hope you are successful in your own journey soon. :-)

re: Pregnancy didn't cure my infertility

katef — Sun, 22 Aug 2010 17:23:45 GMT

lauren, i had never even thought of the perspective you're sharing - thank you so much for coming back on here and being honest with where you are.

my husband and i have not (yet) gone to the great lengths you had to in order to conceive, but i think i would have totally assumed that getting pregnant should cure all the efforts of getting there - like it's the grand finale and everything else pales in comparison with the joy and delight of finally succeeding. i'm sure there will be plenty of joy and delight, but it's really good to acknowledge the pain involved is still very real and present and a part of your journey.

we've been trying to get pregnant for about 11 months but just learned about charting & whatnot 2 months ago, so we'll probably keep charting for a while to see if that will do the trick. but there have definitely been emotional lows (yesterday being a doozy) that will still be just as valid and important in our story of becoming a family (if we ever do succeed)...

it's a good thing to realize.

thanks for sharing.

it also makes me want to be very sensitive with any comments i might make around people - as well meaning as they might be. i'm also a teacher & know exactly what you're talking about with the 'must be something in the water', but how that kind of comment would seem to trivialize the great lengths you've had to go to when others haven't.

my sister-in-law is just now pregnant again with baby #5 (one miscarriage) but only 2 months after miscarrying and it makes me a little crazy that it's SO easy for her to get pregnant! i know she's had her own pain in miscarrying, but i had quite a battle with wanting to be happy for them but also feeling so angry that it's been hard for us.

anyhow, this is turning into a book - my main point is, thanks for sharing this step in your journey. and congratulations!!

re: The verdict is in...

jab2003 — Mon, 02 Aug 2010 01:27:48 GMT

Awww...just found you, and am SO HAPPY for you! What a journey you've had. Congratulations on such a precious blessing!

re: I Can't Get Out of my Head!

dbprof — Thu, 06 May 2010 23:59:47 GMT

Yeah for your good news!

re: I Can't Get Out of my Head!

dbprof — Mon, 03 May 2010 18:22:54 GMT

You are not crazy, hon! I have done the exact same things. Many hugs and good thoughts until Wednesday!

re: I Can't Get Out of my Head!

turtlemom — Mon, 03 May 2010 05:23:26 GMT

you don't sound crazy :) don't be too hard on yourself.. i feel like i can relate to some of this, even tho i'm in a different place... i am already worried about how worried i will be if/when i get pregnant! and am incessantly reading everything i can about fertility percentages etc etc online! I hope that your fears will subside and you will be able to enjoy this more... and hope all goes well for you! And I think you found the perfect place to share your feelings as I am sure many here totally understand :)

re: I Can't Get Out of my Head!

akl75 — Sun, 02 May 2010 03:14:13 GMT

Lauren,

I think it is totally normal for you to be feeling anxious and stressed out! In a way it seems to me like the "normal" way to react given the "abnormal"/unpredictable events that have happened over the past 2 years for you.

My girlfriend at work and I have been talking about this very situation--she miscarried at 9 weeks and after 2 years + of infertility issues, she finally got pregnant via IVF this past March. She said the stress and anxiety has been worse since she got pregnant fearing she may miscarry again. She is also having twins which has also freaked her out! I do know that after her 1st u/s she felt so much better. My guess (as I don't have the experience) will be as each day passes the anxiety will decrease and you'll be able to get excited and embrace your long awaited pregnancy.

I hope your u/s goes well--keep us posted!

Amanda

re: I Can't Get Out of my Head!

Star.H — Sat, 01 May 2010 21:15:26 GMT

I have not had the fertility issues you have had....but I can definitely understand the irrational crazy thoughts of being punished.

I am praying that your u/s shows everything is wonderful and there is a healthy little heartbeat so you can relax. I bet once you reach a certain point in your pregnancy you will be able to just be plain excited.

Do not feel bad about the feelings and irrational thoughts....I do not think many of us with multiple miscarriages, fertility issues, or any other baby making problems have NOT had those kinds of thoughts at some point or other.

re: The verdict is in...

becca82 — Sun, 25 Apr 2010 21:12:13 GMT

Ahh I totally teared up! Congrats!

re: The verdict is in...

Nichole — Fri, 23 Apr 2010 15:52:27 GMT

Great news, Lauren! I'm so happy that IVF went well for you. H&H 9 months!

re: The verdict is in...

benji2009 — Thu, 22 Apr 2010 20:51:38 GMT

Congratulations, Lauren!

I am so happy for you! I had a smile on my face the whole time I read your blog.

re: The verdict is in...

juleslaw — Tue, 20 Apr 2010 12:49:48 GMT

Congratulations! I am so so so happy for you! Please keep us updated!

re: The verdict is in...

skins — Mon, 19 Apr 2010 01:34:30 GMT

Lauren, I've been following your blog here and I am SO FREAKIN HAPPY for you!!! Many prayers and blessings are being sent your way for a happy and healthy pregnancy.