TCOYF
Taking Charge of Your Fertility

laurenAZ

Sort by: Most Recent | Most Viewed | Most Commented

  • Pregnancy didn't cure my infertility

    I haven't been writing in this blog because for so long it was a blog about my infertility, and it seemed strange to suddenly start writing about pregnancy when I knew so many women reading it had empathized with my struggles and were in the same...

  • I Can't Get Out of my Head!

    A foreword: Do forum courtesies apply here? Do I have to say "pg mentioned" each time I post? I don't want to be insensitive. ** So I've been seeing a counselor ever since my miscarriage in August. Over time we talked less about the...

  • The verdict is in...

    ...and I'm pregnant! That's the short version! And now the long version so I have it recorded for posterity... I never did break down and test early, so I showed up at the RE's office today completely in the dark about the results. i went...

  • In the 10DW...

    One of the FEW perks of IVF and FETs is that there's no longer a 2WW. Instead I'm in the 10DW - the 10-day wait between my FET and my beta. So my first FET was yesterday, about 5 1/2 weeks since the official BFN in what I thought was a near-perfect...

  • Waiting for my FET

    On Tuesday I had my long-awaited monitoring appointment for my FET cycle. Well I guess I "only" waited a month, but it was a looooong month after my first IVF was a BFN. Even though I knew there was relatively little that could go wrong, I was...

  • And so I'm 30...

    Today is my 30th birthday. I've been dreading it for weeks. Everyone IRL thinks I'm just doing the obligatory complaining about "the big 3-0," when the truth is that today is just a huge, neon, flashing reminder that I have no children...

  • I Should Have Known

    I should have known it wasn't going to work for me. I just should have known. And I shouldn't have let myself get excited or hopeful because I should have known it wasn't going to work. And why should it? Apparently my ridiculously perfect...

  • Wishing and hoping...

    Hope is a scary thing. It's scary how the more you hope for something, the more you're setting yourself up for disappointment if that something doesn't come. I went into this IVF with so little hope, such low expectations. As we've crossed...

  • Expecting the Unexpected

    Yesterday I woke up in the middle of a dream that most of my embies had died and the only ones remaining were in horrible condition and graded at the bottom of the scale. I spent all morning before my embryo transfer sick to my stomach thinking this was...

  • The big day (part 1)

    (I guess technically the big day would be the day of my pregnancy test in a couple weeks.. so we'll call this "Big Day Part 1!") My embryo transfer is this afternoon at 12:30. Last night I had a dream that I got to the doctor's office...

  • Halfway there

    I'm at the halfway point of my first and hopefully only IVF cycle. So far things have gone better than anyone expected. Each time a new hurdle comes along, I'm convinced it's the one that'll make us fall. But so far this hasn't happened...

  • Facing reality

    At the end of December I was hit in the face with the news that at 29 my FSH is 12.9 and our best option to conceive is IVF. I haven't blogged since that time because writing about it somehow made it all real. But at this point I'm WAY past the...

  • One more step back

    Well I thought I was depressed this morning. That's nothing compared to how I feel now after having met with the RE this morning. I never even asked her about the lack of temp shift or charting because I was slapped across the face with an FSH of...

  • One step forward, two steps back

    That's how I feel this whole journey has been. I haven't written since my IUI because I've been too depressed. After waiting and waiting and waiting and being SO excited to finally do a Clomid + IUI cycle, I'm pretty sure the cycle is...

  • My first (and hopefully only IUI) - check!

    So today was my first IUI - well technically an FSP but no one seems to be familiar with FSP on these boards, or maybe the terms are just used interchangeably. This morning the alarm went off at 6:45 and (TMI) I provided DH with a little "encouragement"...
1 2 Next >
Powered by Community Server (Non-Commercial Edition), by Telligent Systems