On Tuesday I had my long-awaited monitoring appointment for my FET cycle.  Well I guess I "only" waited a month, but it was a looooong month after my first IVF was a BFN.  Even though I knew there was relatively little that could go wrong, I was still pretty nervous.  I was scared I'd ovulated or that my lining wouldn't be thick enough.  So I was VERY relieved to get a call Tuesday afternoon saying I was approved for the FET!

Last night I went back on my PIO injections, Saturday I start Medrol, Monday antibiotics, and Tuesday is the day of the transfer - four days from now.

I'm thinking of getting acupuncture before and after the transfer.  I made the first phone call tonight to ask about it, and I'll know tomorrow morning whether they can fit me in.  It turns out the practictioner is already going to be at my RE's office doing acupuncture for the patient before me!  So they're trying to see if there would be an overlap or if they can fit me in too.  I've always wanted to try it and I figure with all the money we've spent thus far, what's another $350? 

I go back and forth between feeling hopeful and feeling like this is futile.  On the one hand, it's hard to feel 100% hopeful when you've already had an IVF cycle fail.  My clinic says their frozen success rates are similar to their fresh success rates, but everywhere I look I find literature that's telling me my chances are lower with an FET.  Obviously my logical brain is thinking, "Well I didn't get pregnant with IVF, so how am I supposed to get pregnant with FET, which has even lower success rates than IVF?!" 

On the other hand, I think my body is waaay more relaxed and prepared this time.  IVF is really hell on one's body.  Frozen cycles are a piece of cake.  I feel like I'm more relaxed and receptive to a pregnancy right now.  And TMI, but I had major tummy issues as a result of all my meds last time, and I just know that wasn't helping anything!  I'm hoping that a massage, some acupuncture, and some relaxation will help things this time.

Two weeks from today will be my beta.  I hope this is finally my miracle.