Things are looking up.  Finally.

I left my first RE appointment in November devastated because the doc wanted me to take a cycle off from Clomid while we did diagnostic tests, in addition to mentioning skipping straight to IUI with injectables.  Combine this all with the fact that my insurance was arguing about paying any diagnostics, and I felt pretty bad after that first appointment.  Cut to a week later when my DH and I had our first fight about IF, and it just hadn't been a good couple of weeks.

But things are looking up.  My most recent blog post was about I'd come to the realization after our fight that no amount of money was worth hurting my relationship.  I made the decision right there to do all these tests regardless of the cost so we could move on and have a family like we both want.  Immediately after I wrote these thoughts out, I decided to check my claim online with Cigna to see if it had been processed.  And right there next to my RE's name was the most beautiful word..... PAID!  They told me at the clinic that if I wanted to wait until the first claim was processed before doing more tests, it would give a good indication of whether they were going to cover diagnostics.  So with any luck, this means my bloodwork and my HSG will be covered too.  Fingers crossed!

But I'm not even to the good part yet.  So I went in this morning for my baseline ultrasound and my CD3 bloodwork.  Everything looked OK on the u/s for the most part (lining was a tiny bit thick, and there was a small cyst on my ovary, but the doc thinks that's where I ovulated last cycle). So we were done and the doctor was about to leave, but then I harnessed the assertive woman I'd promised myself I was going to be, and I said, "So let me ask you... since all of my bloodwork and tests are done, is there any reason I can't go ahead and try Clomid this cycle?"  I have the pills in hand already from my OBGYN, and since I've gotten PG on Clomid before I really didn't want to take a month off.  He thought about it and asked me a couple of questions, and I explained that I'd been on it before and had gotten PG.  He said that since my tests were done and since I'm planning to do an HSG, that I could do Clomid!

But it gets better!  So then I got really ballsy and I said, "So can I press my luck now and ask if I can do an IUI this cycle too?"  And he almost nonchalantly said,  "Oh yes, that's what I was talking about."

AUGH!!!!!  I get to do a Clomid + IUI cycle THIS MONTH!!  This is what I've wanted ever since the beginning of our IF journey.  I was so afraid I was going to have to wait until next month or be forced to skip to injectables, but now I'm getting everything I hoped for and I'm getting it NOW!  I have my HSG scheduled for next Monday, my CD14 u/s next Friday, and then I wait to O and we do the IUI the week before Christmas!  (or on Christmas Day if I O on schedule, lol) Basically my IUI is going to be about 6 weeks after I made my first phone call to the RE's office.   Anyway, I think this is going to be my Christmas miracle.

So needless to say, I'm THRILLED with how my appointment went today.  It was my dream best-case scenario.  In a milion years I didn't think I'd be walking out of there with permission to take Clomid tonight and plans to come back for an IUI in two weeks. I am SO happy.

Now I have to keep my fingers crossed for several things:  First, this was another doctor who agreed on this plan, not my own.  Hopefully she won't come in tomorrow and decide this is all a bad idea.  I doubt that is going to happen.  Second, we have to pray my tube is clear (I only have one ovary).  And third, we have to pray all my bloodwork comes back normal (or at least not so abnormal it would prevent this protocol from working).  Otherwise I'm good to go and counting down the seconds until my first IUI!!

My great morning completely made up for the fact that when I got back to work, we were on rainy day schedule and my 31 second-graders were complete terrors for the rest of the afternoon!