This morning I had my phone consultation with the RE's office before my first appointment a week from today. I went from feeling totally excited about this process to totally anxious and frustrated. I knew my insurance had zip for infertility coverage, but I thought it would at least cover diagnostics. But it turns out anything that is coded "infertility" isn't covered. When I had the same tests done a year ago because I hadn't gotten my period in three months, they were covered because at that point it was a medical problem. So I'm supposed to talk to the doc Tuesday and see if she can code any of this as testing for PCOS. I'd feel just the tiniest bit better if I could get some of the diagnostics covered. As it is, the first appointment ALONE is $300 - no meds, no treatment, no ultrasound, nothing.
The funny thing is, I don't care about the money as much as I care about the principle. Infertility is a medical condition that I in no way caused. I'm just so ANNOYED that my insurance doesn't cover IF. It will, however, cover rehab and substance abuse counseling. So I get no coverage for a medical situation I have no control over, yet a person who chooses to take drugs is covered for rehab. How is that fair? I've said for a few months now that I'm at the point where I don't care what it costs to have a baby, and that's true. But now that the time is here, I'm upset by the idea of paying for it. It's not supposed to cost anything to get pregnant. And it's not fair that I pay money for insurance that will help you with your problems but won't help me with mine.
I'm also still coming to terms with the fact that this is all a big gamble. I've never been in a situation before where I was going to plunk down $1500 for something and not actually be guaranteed to get anything for it. If anyone reading this has been through ART, maybe you can talk me down as this is all very new to me...
Anyway, I'm trying to remind myself that all I really want in this world - all I have EVER wanted - is to be a mother. I'm still learning not to stress the details along the road to getting there.
Posted
11-17-2009 12:24 PM
by
laurenAZ