I guess I never quite figured out what journals are at the old site, but I'm happy to see that blogs are available here.  I'm all about blogging, twittering, facebooking, and various other forms of social networking "in real life," but hadn't quite found the outlet I needed to discuss my infertility and my TTC journey.  It just didn't seem like the type of thing I wanted to be sharing with friends and family.  Strange isn't it, how I'm comfortable sharing the intricate details of my fertility with complete strangers, but my own mother doesn't even know about my miscarriage.  Then again, I'll admit to having more than one lunch conversation centered around the topic of cervical mucus... 

Me in a nutshell:  I'm 29, happily married, and TTC #1 officially since June 2008.  I have PCOS, one ovary, and DH has mild MFI.  After 8 anovulatory months followed by 6 cycles of BFNs, I finally got my first BFP on 100mg Clomid.  I miscarried at 5 weeks, 4 days on August 31 and have spent every second since trying to come to terms with it while carrying on with my normal life, continuing to TTC, and swallowing sadness while it seems like EVERYONE around me gets and stays pregnant with zero effort.  After my miscarriage, I started seeing a counselor.  She suggested I start writing about all of this, so I'm grateful to finally have a place to do it where I can remain semi-anonymous but still have the support of friends.

On Thursday I was informed by my OBGYN that she's only giving me two more rounds of Clomid (including this cycle) and then she's firing me and sending me off to a fertility specialist (my words, not hers ).  I have mixed feelings about this.  My gut reaction was disappointment because the standard is six cycles of Clomid and she's only giving me five.  I also feel cheated because I actually GOT pregnant on the second cycle!  I guess I thought the six cycles would start over again after the m/c.  On the other hand, once I started thinking about it, I realized that maybe moving on to a fertility doc is exactly what I should be doing.  The only reason I haven't done it yet is because I have zero infertility coverage.  But had I known in June 2008 when we started TTC that I wouldn't be pregnant OR have a baby in November 2009, I would have gone to a specialist immediately.  So maybe I should stop wasting time hoping to get lucky naturally and just go to the RE.  I know we're good candidates for IUI.  Maybe it's time to just get the ball rolling.

For right now I'm on CD 5 and taking Clomid CD3-7 and hoping for another miracle...