Ugh...If I hear one more person give me that kind of advice about trying to get pregnant I will scream!!!!  If it were only that easy! I WISH I could just forget about it - My life would be so much easier and happier!!!!

I am new to this blogging technology, and new to forums and the like, but reading and hearing all the struggles, pain and encouragement from everyone has got me realizing that maybe this technology is not so bad.  As good as it will be to get things off my chest, it will be even better to not be the recipient of some more 'wonderful' advice!!!! 

We have been TTC for about 3 years now:  1 year on our own and two years with assistance.  We have had 3 IUIs through our fertility specialist...all failed.  Needless to say, my morale and chipper personalilty were hidden somewhere because it was just easier to be downing it.  Being that I am of the whole body and mind philosophy, I started under-going Acupuncture treatments once a week with herbal medicines (TCM) for our infertility.  Although we have still not been lucky, Acupuncture made me feel GREAT!!!  I felt more grounded, calm, relaxed and happy - although my real chipper self was still hiding.  Luckily my Acupuncturist is a smart woman and a great person - she always asked about my symptoms from week to week, and thanks to her, we found out we had Endo. (stage 2-3) and cysts on my ovaries.  I brought this up with our Specialist and surgery was scheudled to remove it all.  Now we are back to square one...trying again for another 6 months.

This time though I was tired of feeling sad, upset, helpless and most importantly out-of-control.  So I am now taking my BBT and charting! The TCOYF book has already taught me more about my body than I ever have in my 32 years alive!  With the charting, I have come to realize that my luteal phase is 9 days - WELL NO WONDER IT HASN'T BEEN WORKING FOR US!  We were, from the get-go, at a disadvantage!  But I figured it out on my own and I am feeling more motivated to have this baby than I have in the past 3 years...I found a problem which will hopefully be the one that will be fixed and will provide us with our bundle ofl ove!

So now I begin the process again, and I am not sure how I feel about it, but to be honest with you, I have faith...and control this time around!