This is what my DH says every time I get baby fever.  "There's an order to things... first we get married."  Well, yes.  We did that.  Then: "There's an order to things.  First we get married, then we find a house where we can settle down together... and THEN we can work on the baby."

Well, guess what???  We're HOMEOWNERS!!!  As of last Wednesday!  We drove the loaded moving truck to the closing, I'm so not even kidding.  It's an absolutely beautiful place.  I already love living here!  And I can't wait to bring home a little bundle here!  We have lots of rooms to fill with the laughter of children!  DH even said last week, "See, honey, there's an order to things.  First we had to get married, and then we had to find a house to settle down in, and NOW we can work on the baby!"  Did you see that?  He said NOW.  He even said (jokingly) as we were unloading the moving truck that we should start working on conceiving our boy immediately, because he's going to need help working on the house sooner rather than later, so we can get cracking!  LOL.

I have baby fever SO bad right now.  I want to start TTC!!  I just discovered yet another friend on facebook who changed her profile pic to her ultrasound image.  Subtle, right?  and i actually thought to myself "Well, she's older than me, so she's allowed to be pregnant before me."  How terrible is that?!?  I feel bad for being ridiculous and egocentric, but I want it to be MY TURN!  I stalk the TWW thread on here and wistfully wish I could legitimately be a part of it.  So it's like, two of my cousins are pg, a dear friend from high school has a really impressive baby bump, several friends from high school and college have new little ones, and now this girl posts her ultrasound pic.  I want to be among them!!!

Why can't we just try, seeing as how all the things on DH's ordered list are checked off and a baby is the next logical step?  Well we were waiting for after our trip to Malaysia in May, so that I wouldn't have to get anti-malarial treatments.  Malaria would be bad for a pregnant lady.  But... would it really be so bad?  If I'm pregnant, I'd just get the stuff that's safe for pregnancy.  In my head, it has sounded like a good idea all day, but now typing it out, it seems really silly.  Silly to put a baby at risk, silly to risk morning sickness on an international trip like that.

But still.  DH is out on business travel until April 3.  Then he's leaving for another trip again the 5th.  I don't really want to make love to him after we've been apart for two weeks with protection.  That is supposed to be my fertile period.  If we do it once, we'd be rolling the dice, and TTW.  If it doesn't happen, we'd still be on course for following the plan.  If it happens.... well.... :o)))))))  

I don't think he'll go for it.  What if he does?  Should I be strong and say we should wait???  ARGH I want to try for a baby!!!