Life is insane.  We're in the process of buying a house, and that process has stopped and started several times (although today it seems to have started again, so I'm less worried about that for now).  DH just started a new job, which is great, but he is feeling like he wants to settle into it before we talk about TTC.  We had a pretty big fight about the whole "getting his parents to do child care" thing, because I'm nervous that (a) I won't be able to assert myself on parenting issues and (b) if they end up living with us, I will reallyreallyreally want/need some personal space!  I love my MIL, but I don't really want to live with her!  DH is pretty convinced that this is the best option for child care in terms of economics and love for our child (can't disagree with those points), and he says that they'll only be here a month at a time probably anyway.  So I don't know.  I keep going back and forth on it.

OTOH, we went skiing last weekend.  DH has been very worried that "once the kids come" we'll be giving up a lot of the fun activities that we do - hiking, skiing, travel, etc.  I'm trying to convince him that we don't have to give them up, they'll just be changing a little.  The ski place we went to this weekend is super kid-friendly, and he spent the whole weekend saying "I can really imagine bringing the kids here!" and "When I bring Junior here..."  So that was awesome.  I had some awesome EWCM this month and really wanted to take the opportunity.  We didn't and it's probably just as well.

To top it all off, things are a mess for me at work right now.  I haven't been happy there for about 1.5 years, and I really need a change.  I might have an opportunity to make a change, but it will be a step away from what my childhood dream was.  So I'm goign through this major identity crisis about who I am and what i want and how i've changed.  Sometimes I think it'd be a good time to get pregnant because i dont' know what I want at work.  Other times I think I better sort the work thing out first.

I think I ovulated today, which means that the decision has been made for another month.  As DH says, "Bye bye egg..."