Expanding My Family

I got my Positive

Waitn4myBaby — Mon, 25 Jan 2010 14:52:00 GMT

I am still in shock. I cannot believe that it happened this easily or this quickly.

I think I am starting to have symptoms, but then again I am not sure if it is my mind playing tricks on me. For the last week I have been sleeping like a rock, then then so tired during the day. Two nights ago I had one of those crazy, pregnant sex dreams that people talk about and totally woke up in the middle of the BIG O, that was a nice little surprise. Yesterday I was hungry all day, but couldn't eat much at a time. This morning brushing my teeth caused a wave of nasea, and then driving to work I was so thirsty I couldn't stand it. The thirst and dry mouth was making me a little bit dizzy and naseaous.

I am just so amazed and in such awe. I talked to my little bean while I was in the shower this morning, then I totally started bawling like baby.

My doctor wants to wait until the 7 week mark for me to come in for the official visit and an ultrasound. I really don't see I can even wait until after that appointment, much less 12 weeks to tell people. How do you wait until 12 weeks to tell people, I am busting at the seams and want to scream from the roof tops "I'm PREGNANT".

On the door step of my first 2 week wait

Waitn4myBaby — Tue, 12 Jan 2010 17:56:00 GMT

After a lot of thought and sole searching I decided to plunge ahead with TTC. I talked with a very good friend of mine and decided to go a homeopathic route to get rid of the ring worm and it seems to be working ... well that and I called my GYN and they said that dyflucan was perfectly safe to TTC, pregnant, and breast feeding women.

Thanks for the scare doc!

So DH and I have plunged ahead. I have had some very proming ovulation signs this week. Positive OPKs for the last three days. Ovulation pain Sunday night and Monday morning. Temp dip Sunday morning and a rise Monday which brought it back up to cover line, and another rise today that brought it above cover line. The only thing I didn't have was EWCM. I am a little worried about that. Afraid that my lack of EWCM will render this cycle useless.

I am waiting for 2 more days of temp above cover line, then I will be in the 2ww. I am so excited and nervous. I want to keep telling myself I am NOT pregnant so that I do not get upset when AF shows up. I know this process can take a while so I am doing my best to relax and enjoy it.

Hurry up and wait

Waitn4myBaby — Thu, 31 Dec 2009 20:19:00 GMT

I feel like I just got started and I am already having to put the breaks on things.

Long story short, I got ringworm from my dog and eventhough I have tried to treat it with OTC ointment for the last week (yes, figured out it was ringworm on Christmas Eve .... Merry Christmas to me) it has gotten worse and spread. I went to the doctor today and he prescribed dyflucan. Take one a week for the next 8-12 weeks .... and he said DO NOT get pregnant until it is out of your system.

I am really really upset by this. I mean it would be one thing to just not get pregnant while I was trying, but to sit on the side lines and watch the cycles pass knowing I can do nothing about it is really frustrating me.

There are a million silver linings, like; more time to save money/pay off debt, more time for my cycle to regulate after BCPs and for me to learn what is giong on .... but all I can think right now is "go freaking figure, just my luck. Why couldn't I get ringworm 3 months ago when I wasn't TTC ANYWAY"

As my mom says, this too shall pass.

Christmas Eve

Waitn4myBaby — Fri, 25 Dec 2009 02:45:00 GMT

My first Christmas Eve gathering is a success. We had a great time with m family and DH's family together. The boys got to open all of their present's from their grandparents (bio and step) tonight.

I just keep thinking how wonderful it will be to have our own child to share christmas with. I really hope that this time next year there is a uniting force in our family.

Cycle 1 over, Happy and Sad.

Waitn4myBaby — Tue, 22 Dec 2009 22:09:00 GMT

I started spotting today. I am on CD 30 and I don't think I ovulated this cycle, although I am not sure because I only started charting half way through. I didn't really think it would happen the first cycle off birth control, but I was hoping.

I am sad that it didn't happen, but I am also glad this cycle is over. This cycle was nuts just trying to figure out what was what. I am chalking the last 30 days up to a learning curve and now I am ready to get serious about the baby making. Now I just have to wait for Aunt Flo to hurry up and get finished ... seems like baby making is a lot of hurry up and wait.

Trying to Become a Real Mom.

Waitn4myBaby — Mon, 21 Dec 2009 21:24:00 GMT

I have two stepsons, 12 and 9, I feel like I have been a mom for 4 years now. No one seems to really count that though. My husband and our are TTC our first and I am very impatient. I feel like being a Stepmom is like editing. They boys came to me 7 and 4, I have polished their behavior, stepped up their manners and can even say I see a bit of me in them, like my 12 year old's love of cheese and the touch of sarcasm in the 9 year old.

And as much as I have enjoyed editing and molding these two guys, and look forward to being a part of lives from here on, I am ready to create my own. I am ready for my husband and I to bonded. I am ready to be pregnant.

I have never been much of on for patients. I decide on a course of action and I make it happen. This having to wait around for nature to take it's course if for the birds. I am trying my hardest to enjoy this, and not turn it into a science experiement, but it is hard.

So here I am almost 29 years old and TTC my very own miracle, and wishing it could be as easy as going to the pet store to pick out a new puppy.