Seriously...where is it?  Ok, so, yes, I am still breast feeding.  But Jude only nurses right before bed, and that's it.  And, yes, I've enjoyed not having to worry about AF for, wow, over two years now.  But never did I imagine that at almost 17months postpartum, there'd be no AF in sight.  Crazy...  And I miss it.  Not exactly getting my period, but just having the clear option to get pregnant.  We were really thinking that when Jude was around a year, we'd start trying again.  A year has come and gone, and still no ovulation.  Several times I really thought it could have happened.  And several times, I even thought I might be pregnant.  But no.  Nothing. 

Two of my best friends are pregnant with their firsts, and I would love love love to be pregnant at the same time as them, but it's just not happening.  I'm trying to be really laid back about it, and just enjoy right now...but somedays I just have to wonder what my body is up to, you know.  It'll happen, and I just need to relax and come to terms with the fact that it's completely out of my hands anyway.

On the bright side, Jude is such a sweet little girl.  It seems like every day she makes a new discovery and starts something new.  She is talking so much these days.  Her language and sign language have really taken off, and she says whole phrases now like, "I like my stool," "Clean up," and "I love you, too."  She loves to see little babies, and it is just adorable to see her say and sign "baby, baby, baby."  I want to get her a little baby doll to play with, but I was really hoping we'd be pregnant again soon, and that we'd give her a baby doll to celebrate a new sibling on the way.  Is that silly to hold off for that?